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Angelic and Planetary Hours [Png]

You should be able to click and save each of the images below. I will go through a quick run down soon explaining them in a little more detail. For now, enjoy my badly edited video here.

sunday-monday

tuesday-wednesday

thursday-friday

saturday

They are handy for your Book of Conjurations, Book of Shadows or almanacs.

Sy, x


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My Lesser Banishing of the Pentagram Ritual [video]

Hopefully, this will make sense =]

This is my interpretation alone, from my practices.

Sy’s Thelema Bits | LBRP Breakdown

93/93, x x


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When Quality Dies 2 | I Deleted 50+ Videos

Please read the previous post here before reading this one.

There were 2 more points, but because I tend I to write things straight from the mind, I didn’t write them down before hand. I am a fool, I know this, please do not tell me. *face palm* If I remember what they are, I’ll jot them down before publishing here.

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I come to a point in the day when I am reading something quite profound, or watching a documentary where the presenter is repeating what I feel in my heart, word for word. When that happens I just feel a sense of acceptance within. Does that make sense? I mean, more along the lines of knowing that the ideas and concepts I came up with aren’t as far fetched as I thought. There is something stirring in the recesses of my mind, and part of me believes that magickal/occult/spiritual knowledge is most definitely innate. You can’t have these concepts of spirituality, and see their physical patterns/manifestation in nature if the Gods hadn’t given you that ability. Think about Decartes meditation on Gods “Trademark Argument”. If you are unfamiliar here is a super quick run down:

God is a tradesman, a jack of all trades. When he made us, which ever way you believe, he left his trademark on us. And there you have it. To expand, on a occult/witchy level, I believe that mark is our connection to him/her/it. Its our wired modem to the Universe. The only way to boost ourselves, and make that connection fast is to find ourselves and start at the base, at malkuth.

Over time, we will come across trials and harsh lessons, coupled with the wonderful effects of our Will going well. For me, this has been happening for some time. The problem I have is knowing I am pretty much a tiny percent of the pagan population, and thus there aren’t many people to turn to. I wish I could upload videos on the Qabalah, or videos on my fan-dom over writers I love. I wish I could just ask people for advice and help when I need it; but I can’t because I will look like a total fool. When I uploaded the brief video on Kameas, asking for folks to come forward, not many people did. I actually felt crap after a few days. I just kept myself why? What was the point? Ain’t nobody gonna understand you, fool! That’s one video I may delete quite soon too.

The one major thing that has made me stop in my tracks is the fact that I know I am changing, and I have to let go of that old life. The person I was back then is no longer the person I am now, nor who I will be in future. I guess in a way, I am trying to show myself that I am that change. I am being initiated again, as it were. A long while back I was initiated. At first I wasn’t sure but I was excited. I think I may have done a video on it, but I have no idea if it still there or not. When I told a few friends about it, they were the ones who confirmed that it was an initiation; I have gone with the flow since, and have asked my newest friends who also confirmed it.

The person I was, and the person I am becoming will appear more as time goes on. I think that is the reason why the Gods have blessed me with a new name. A while back the word ‘Zenais’ kept popping up in dreams (read the second or third previous post). At first, as I was researching into my HGA (high guardian angel or higher self), I assumed I was supposed to give it that name. That’s the person I will become once I am enlightened fully. I will connect with her. She is my Goddess; I am Goddess; I am Buddha.

Ohmigawd… Just writing that last bit sent chills down my spine! In a good way! I am getting closer!

All of the spiritual paths I have learnt from, and still learning from all form the basis of my spiritual life. They all moulded who I am and I am grateful and thankful beyond belief. These paths will nourish me for the rest of my life. I don’t pick and choose as and when boredom hits, because I have never been bored so far. I have hit a point on a particular path where it no longer tastes good and I will drop it almost immediately, such as Wicca. If I become confused, I have learnt to look at the sutras, BOtL and Ptah Hotep, but I will ask folks for help, if I am lost or lonely. I am just going to focus on myself and how I make an effect on the world.

Like I said before, there is more, but I can’t think straight. I am going to leave it there, but please watch the following videos to get a grasp of where I am coming from. They are yoga videos, all less that 4 minutes long.

Ryan Leier – Yoga Is
Ryan Leier – The Six Poisons
Ryan Leier – The Six Vitamins

Sy, x

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When Quality Dies | I Deleted 50+ Videos

Do you know what it’s like knowing no matter much you want to integrate or become part of the ‘group’, you can’t? There are changes occurring, both spiritual and on a material level. In order for me to get my head around these changes I have done a few things that will ease the lessons I’ll need to grasp. The idea for this post was to detail the magical formulas of L.V.X, I.A.O. and possibly touch on INRI and NOX. However wonderful those formulas and philosophical theories are, therein lies the problem. I won’t explain them well, let alone be able to show you how to operate them as I am still trying to work my way through them. As a few very magickally adept practitioners constantly remind me, I am going through the dark night of the soul. My soul is yearning to meet my higher self, and in doing so exposing my inner, most sensitive core. As you can imagine it is exciting and scary at the same time.

I have so many thoughts swimming around my head. So, so many. I wish I could open a small door to let them fall out. The only way they have gotten out so far is in my new magick Moleskine. Even then, its just a jumble of paragraphs and pages that all have one theme in common: change. Now, my thoughts are still rather convoluted so bare with me as you read this. I have devised a small point list thing to help guide my words. Hopefully it will make sense.

1) The pagan community on YouTube:
Okay, for those of you who know me, especially over the last few years, I am a typical young lady who is no longer a child, but not yet a woman. I am a confused wreck, who seeks comfort and confirmation in order to have a boost of confidence. You all know I am not someone who finds making friends very easy at all. However, when I joined the community back in 07? I made a ton of friends, and then started to vlog in 09. It has been a lovely journey. Meeting and greeting people from all over the world, and forming friendships I could only ever dream of. I met most of my best friends within the community, and I thank the Gods each time I hear from them. Jack, as most of you know has a successful book binding business and I support him all the way. Candace is not only spiritual, creative and hot, she is a wonderful photographer. I could go into a ton of detail concerning many people I love and admire as friends, but that would take a while, but know I love you.

(Do your thing Flora!)

Now, with the good times, you get the bad. I have issues with homelessness, money and depression, which meant I have been away from the YouTube community for an awful long time. But, long before all of that stopped me from vlogging there were cracks within the community. Sadly, some vloggers didn’t say my name in their rant videos, but they described me quite well. There aren’t many London witches in YouTube land, let alone back in 2010. I am someone who is neutral or mostly positive. I like to give advice or ask for help. I stopped doing too many VR’s and stopped my readings. I became overwhelmed with the amount of people wanting things or information rather than making friends. It became a place where some individuals wanted fame and numbers, rather than quality. Speed forward 2 more years and now the themes are, drama, fame, quantity and business. There doesn’t seem to be much quality out there anymore and its getting on my nerves. There are a very small number of vloggers who are there for expression of thought and to make friends, like me and the folks from before 2011. Those are the people I will support continuously because I know they will succeed on a more grounded level, instead of being something they are not.

For the lack of interest in quality, I deleted even more videos. Totalling something like 125 videos that have gone since I first started clearing up months ago. I have a few more I want to delete. Mostly because the personal message I embedded in each one is no longer something I want to share, and partly because I am an academic witch. No one likes a boring know it all who could summon spirits quite easily, instead of casting love spell after love spell, now do they?

2) The Holy Laws and Maxims I adhere to:

I will go into more detail about these sometime. Maybe. Depends on if you want to know.

The main areas I stem insight, balance and practice from are:

♣The Maxims of Ptah-Hotep
♣The Book of the Law
♣The Kybalion (check my Hermeticism series so far to get an idea)

Other areas of interest come from the Wiccan Rede (even though I am not a wiccan), Gestalt prayer (thanks to TheFourQueens and my old yet horrid psychology teacher), 42 Virtues of Ma’at, Yogic sutras and Buddhist sutras. I am sure there are others, but I can’t think of them right now.

For me, life is about living the Middle way. If I see something bad happening I won’t walk away, but neither will I stay. Exempli gratia: the YouTube pagans–I will continue making videos, but I won’t worry about the dramas or quantity. My channel is for me, just like the choices I make I life. I am there for me now, and that suits me quite well.

The other point comes down to my sudden ascension or spiritual growth of some kind? I have found the path I am meant to be on, or at least the path I need to follow for now. I have been pointed to this path for years, and it seems that the Gods have had total control. Its wonderful, fun, bad and crazy. These days, the phrase “To be silent,” couldn’t be more obvious. I am learning things at a pace that is fast and new. I also understand with my many failed attempts at asking for help and receiving none via my vlogs, the lessons I learn are to be kept secret until further notice. At the same time, my Thelemite, occult, witch, yoga and pagan friends have been amazing. These people aren’t in the YouTube pagan community, and you can see why that is refreshing. So far, my confidence has fallen dramatically and now I feel to keep my worries, confusion and wanderings to myself and a small number of these offline folks. Before, I may have uploaded various topics and openly discussed my lessons, but nowadays I am limiting my thesis to my blog, journals and future books.

Basically, I am becoming more alone on this path, partly due to choice and partly because the YouTube pagans make it clear there isn’t much space for thinking outside the circle.

To be continued… As another post.

Sy, x

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More Pagan YouTube Drama?

from Google!

I thought we had learnt the second time around? Guess we did, or at least some of us did, that petty crap is unessential as it does nothing for our growth. You want to moan about someone, by all means do so in a polite and sarcastic manner. The thing about the drama this time is that other people are getting involved and invited to stir the crappy cauldron and they are doing it without thinking. What is worse, people just do not think. Some people are running their mouths with “doesn’t anybody know what common sense is anymore?!” when they are jumping into the fire just like the persons they are addressing. My way of doing things is simple. Ignore them, like you would the annoying child you just want to sell to the neighbour and just get on. I have had a bit of a rant on Facebook because I logged into YouTube properly for the first time in what feels like forever to catch up with over a years worth of pagan fever and videos to find the negativity brought in by the 3rd wave of pagans has become so disgusting I am glad I stayed away. I shall stay away longer, but only log in to upload and reply to emails.

Anyway, here’s the rant as I may need to remove it because people are overly sensitive and they don’t have the right to be, I’m mentally fucked in the head so I am allowed, yet you don’t see me or the people from the higher end of the popularity spectrum getting involved. What does that say? From the other side, once you open yourself to the internet you have to know that a lot of people find it far easier to cuss you off from their keyboard rather than on the phone or to your face, so deal with it. Welcome to the new millennia child. I deal with abuse about my heritage, skin colour and lack of Christian sympathy every day but it doesn’t stop me from ending the battle with a logical question. Often I am humbugged about why I should be a Christian and to them I either delete the comments or ask them what they would have done if Christianity didn’t exist – they never reply. People harass me on the street and online about my complex heritage and normally I shrug it off as so many people are born stupid, and very rarely I get upset and rant about it. Anyway… rant:

Yesterday I logged into Youtube for the first time in ages and enjoyed the videos on the homepage. Then I started to notice something as I began looking into the new pagan culture; what the hell is going on?! Don’t tell me, I just don’t care, but most of you are part of the 3rd wave of speakers, and a lot of people are looking to you and us from the 1st and 2nd wave [for teaching, inspiration, other opinions and insight]. Fight battles properly, don’t turn them to wars.  I was shocked to find so much disharmony, squabbles and childish behaviour. Everyone has the right to an opinion, but say what you have to say in a respective and adult manner. At least when I openly insult someone to their face about how unintelligent they are, I do with a smile and a helping hand. I don’t just throw punches.  I am someone who makes it known to whoever I am backing/supporting that I will be there, but I won’t help them fight a battle that needn’t be started in the first place. I’ll tell them one thing, “stop giving in to the fire or you’ll get burned.” Fair enough, I am just me, a nobody, but hell I’ve been through and still going through enough personal shit to worry about. I am not getting involved, just like the previous crap from 2/3 years ago with a few people and multiple channel changes. For those of you who are big enough to get on with life, like me, continue to do so. Eventually peace will come back, and then the next wave of vloggers and their scheiße. Sorry if this offends anyone, but I have tried countless times just to be a friend or a correspondence to a lot of people from the 3rd wave and every single one of them have ignored me or send me hateful vibes just because they hate/dislike who I am. That doesn’t get me down anymore, I just ignore them. I have the people I love in my life and they are all I need =] x x

 

There are people on my personal Facebook who I never talk to as they openly ignore me and their friends don’t see, who I need to delete. At the same time all notifications to groups have either been disabled or I have left groups due to people just hating me for who I am. The last time I checked, I hadn’t said or done anything out of turn yet people feel the need to fuck me over and they don’t know me. What does that say about them? I may get upset, but not so much to have 300 of my coolest friends to make these other individuals lives hell. I just don’t give a shit. If there is one thing my spirituality has taught me its something along the lines of what a pagan friend told me, “when there is magick and universal laws only the strongest will survive, so for now fix yourself first then worry about the rest later.”

The past few weeks have been a testing time for me as I have mentioned a lot previously, but I am more awake now than I have ever been and I must say I am liking this new chapter. Where I used to keep my mouth shut out of fear, I just don’t care and I will speak up in a polite manner. I have my life and experience to thank for that. Y’all need to read ‘The Wisdom of Ptah-Hotep’ and ‘The Art of War’ seriously, they taught me a whole lot and did me good.

I love you all, and the ones who don’t know me and especially the folks who hate me when they have no right.

Sy, x x


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Being Pagan Is So Trendy… Unless You Are Learned

What inspired you to vlog? How do I become a Youtube vlogger in the pagan community? Can you teach me how to read tarot so I can vlog too? Can you teach me how to be a wiccan/witch like you? Oh, did you know [insert something obvious here], because you did or said it wrong. – this is just a tiny sample of the questions I am asked daily from viewers on Youtube. I am lucky that honesty comes easily and I will be honest and assertive where needed, but it is increasing day by day. The one thing a lot of people have in common is a lack of understanding and theory when it comes to magick. They assume that Wicca is just a hobby, and it is not. Others don’t see that Wicca is a tiny proportion of pagan practices, religious theology and witchcraft. A lack of proper study gets on my nerves, especially when they have access to so much and refuse to look it up. This is not a quick fix.

Growing up I had a lot of religious freedom to a point, so long as I didn’t venture out into the ‘real world’ too much. I still adhere to particular customs from my Adventist and Jewish upbringing, but I was open to other Christian paths, especially that of the Anglican Church and the old customs of magick from Jamaica from family members. To a child it was all fun and superstition, but as I got older and started my pagan path officially I realised there was truth to a lot of what I was taught. I used to make potions from mud and various flowers. I casted magick circles without realising they were a part of some pagan practices, I was told all I had to do was pray to God whilst walking a circle three times – at age 6! By the time I was well into my second year as a student witch I had collected around five or six folders full of information, lessons, spells, glossaries, rituals and alphabets. I read up on them. I bought books of all kinds, mainly from olde and new age titles, as well as academic history books to reaffirm the practices and my personal identity.

For me, witchcraft is a big part of my life, my beliefs are what help me focus in life. I didn’t meet any formal practitioners until I was around 18/19 years old. I met a lovely Buddhist monk who introduced me to lots of monks, old friends, nuns and books. I met a ton of Wiccans, Witches and Pagan folks on social networking websites and Youtube. I am glad to know men within the OTO, various Hermetic Orders and other magick systems (all non-Wiccan) who in the last few months have been helping me out by viewing my videos and emailing me later to say if my message was okay or not. Thanks to the internet I taught myself a lot. The reason I vlog is to hopefully inspire and help at least one person in a way that I never had. I know I’m not the fun type, my videos are pretty monotone and full of the theory that people just don’t care about, but what I grumble on about is the stuff that separates true practitioners from the ones who will practice a little and become born again Christians in later life. I cannot help you, I can only help myself, regardless of how sad, lonely or fulfilling it is. I just hope that at least someone other than my fabulous friends will say I helped them understand the jargon, or a life lesson in magick.

The facts, theory and history side of things help shape my identity as I mentioned briefly before, because I’m lucky I can retrace my ancestors steps and reaffirm to those unlearned pagans out there that I have just as much right to practice what I want, when I want with proof. I’m a very deep rooted nerd =P If you don’t put in the effort, how far do you expect to go? The lessons you can learn can be found in book shops, Youtube and on the internet. Learn the little things first, like authors names, how to pronounce the Sabbats, learn the meanings of words in various glossaries and learn the basics of astrology. Once you have that, move onto writing up your own spells according to the method you are most happy with. You folks of today have so much at your fingertips, so learn as much as you can; sift the good from the bad and you will go so far.

Another thing which I take huge pride in is the fact that I extended beyond the circle of Wicca and embraced a witchy lifestyle instead which rewards me with freedom. People who watch one of two of my videos assume I’m a Wiccan and I am not. I haven’t been Wiccan for a little while now. I have kept my eyes open to the things around me, taught myself to not only understand what it is like to have an open mind, but to have one regardless. Once I started vlogging my thoughts and theories on subjects, I had opened a doorway to lots of people are there to seek a strangers’ opinion. I get things wrong, but I’m not afraid to admit it, as I’m human and I make mistakes. Be wary that whatever you learn over the years will have effects on your practice, fingers crossed in a nice way, but if you open these customs up to the world there are some individuals who will put you down, or worse expect you to personally teach them when you know you can’t. I’m not a teacher in any way, just a vlogger airing lessons I’ve learnt and making friends. My practice and beliefs come first in all things; Youtube comes much later down the line. Live for now, live for yourself and be smart.

This post is very odd, I apologise, it is 3am and I haven’t planned it out well… hopefully it is okay!

Sy x

Post script… I was chatting with Uni Witch and he agreed with me on the religious front that Paganism is not a religion, just an umbrella term, so why do people call Paganism a religion? Thoughts people!


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The Wickedest Man on Earth – Aleister Crowley Documentary

I have never grown out of the infantile belief that the universe was made for me to suck.
~ Aleister Crowley

Many will inform you to stay away from Aleister Crowley, especially if you are a practitioner who happens to be British like me. Many people who have been influenced by his magick and his books have had split experiences; they either had a wonderfully spiritual time, or they had such an evil experience that it almost cost them their lives. I highly recommend people stay away, unless you know you’ll be okay with the practices and the intensity of the energies that are manifested. If not… I have warned you.

Aleister Crowley

Aleister Crowley

I personally love his works. Some of his written workings are daunting, others are there purely for the reader’s common sense and intellect. It was as if he knew at some point new magickal students would read his stuff, and only the fittest student would understand, surely sifting out the weaker ones. He was from the old British world, when women did the housework and looked after the children, and men would go to work and never open up about anything. Stiff upper lip I say, and it should be so too, pip pip ol’ boy. I have only a few of his books, Liber777, Magick (Book 4 – compiling of books 1 – 4 1912) and The Book of the Law (1904)

Below is a documentary I watched years ago on Youtube, and I’ve just had a quick search to see if it is still there. Lo and behold the power of internet filing and technology! Enjoy.

Indubitably, magic is one of the subtlest and most difficult of the sciences and arts. There is more opportunity for errors of comprehension, judgment and practice than in any other branch of physics.
~Aleister Crowley