An Unfinished and Untitled Poem

I can’t even analyse this poem! Gosh! It’s also unfinished, crap and just weird, but hopefully the message will come across. I haven’t written poems in almost a decade, so I am extremely rusty.

Untitled Poem I

When trust is destroyed it leaves a browning flower,
Even if the sun shines, the world rolls by,
You should succumb to the praise, love and pleasures by the hour.
Trust should never leave your head, your heart or touch,
Especially if that trust was destroyed by another.

My head, my body, thoughts and the dank mire,
All these creations I planted myself, with you
Were subjugated to your every need and want,
Caused my golden yield to sink deep into your poisoned soil.

I fell for the idea of you and I, the day I opened trust,
And even though many people asked why, I just waved them off.
The time came, on one particular night, the Gods showed me the broken lust,
And when I confronted you with it, I hid my tears,
Because I finally saw you for what you were; the one who ruined my heart, and browned that flower,

The one who broke my trust.

Okay, like I said, it’s a work on progress. What do you think so far? What words would you change?

Sy x


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Don’t Judge If You Have No First Hand Knowledge

What is the deal with clich├ęs and boxes in belief? Just because I love Crowley does not mean I dislike fluffy angels. I love angels, I just look at them from a point of view that is more realistic in my head. Think of the angels from Supernatural, the TV show, the angels there aren’t fluffy Doreen Virtue New Age hippies with wings; they are beings of light who have the power to intervene when and if they are ordered or please. I am sick and tired of people assuming who I am and what I believe. If I put it out there then that is all you get, however, if it is you who constantly puts out what whatever comes to head be aware the karmic value will come back, whether cosmically or by copy and paste on a computer.

This is the reason why only a handful of people actually get to see or hear about my practices in detail, because I don’t want to open up due to the negative connotations some of my practice holds. There are a few people I once knew, some of which are still on my friends list who judge my beliefs with a very negative and arrogant eye, who then apply the same judgements to me and that is just plain ignorant. It’s upsetting to be honest. Very upsetting.

But, the one thing my beliefs have taught me is to breathe, simmer down and just let them carry on. How I choose to live my life is up to me, same as how you choose to live yours is up to you. The difference is, I won’t judge you, I would love you and respect you for what diamonds or knowledge I could catch from you. If there is something about you beliefs, (NOT YOU, your beliefs) that I don’t like, I will either keep my mouth shut out of respect or deliver an impossible argument to which you cannot refute. I like to make people think about what they say, but only if I think they are sweet souls who just need the right push. Other times I will just have fun, but that is rare.

I am not asking anyone to respect my beliefs, but I ask you to respect me. Understand that my beliefs are important to me as a person, and if there is something that doesn’t sit well with you discuss it with me (not shout or produce verbal vomit) or keep it locked away. Don’t attack my friends or family, and sure as hell don’t attack my Gods, they will attack you back.

As for peace time, I am concentrating on Maxim 2 again, and going off to put the Christmas tree up with my little sister. As for my mood: fine.