[Updated October 2013]
Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law
Thank you for visiting my blog, and thank you to those who have supported and educated me since 2005! I love you all!
My name is Sy Calaelen, but I do sign my title as Soror Calaelen here, and other places. I’m 25 (as of the date of this update), and am currently a university student, majoring in English literature. I’m a vlogger, as many of you are aware, and this blog serves as the reading space for my thoughts and crazy theories. I explain things in greater detail here, than on my YouTube channel. The last year has been crazy amazing, and so much has happened (hence the re-writing and re-arranging of the blog) that I feel I need to reflect my changes visually to encourage me to keep going.
I grew up between north London and a large town situated along the river Ouse. I spent a lot of my childhood travelling and learning various languages – sadly, I only speak two languages fully in their countries. I was also opened to a strict household of religious thought, practice and living that followed Seventh Day Adventist practices one week, and Jewish practices with the other – resulting in my love for sunsets, and dislike of porky stuff. My fascination with world religions came when studying literature as a child. It wasn’t until I was 11/12 years old that I found out about witchcraft and began to study it meticulously. I didn’t have many friends growing up, and I spent a lot of time hiding in the library from bullies, so reading became my biggest and best hobby.
I found Wicca well into my teen years, and quickly set myself down a road to unhappiness and denial. It wasn’t until I started interacting with other Wiccans and Pagans that I realised those paths weren’t for me. I was yearning for something deeper and more profound. One night I just cried at my altar, begging for some indication as to where and how I would start a path just for me, and from then my life changed. I was immediately pulled back into witchcraft, which I now see as my HGA just making sure I knew all the basics of practical magick. Then I was drawn into ritualistic workings, with better oomph and more direct spiritual teachings. I began to understand the language of symbols, and even my divination skills grew dramatically. From witchcraft I ended up in the occult world and have never looked back since. I’ve gone from strength to strength. For the past year, my occult teachings have all been important components to the person I am now, and that is a Thelemite. Everything I would consider to be important and imperative to my life and practices falls within the daily enactment of living Thelema and following my True Will.
Areas of interest and experience have taught me much well (sorry, Star Wars moment – the grammar automatically turns into Yoda speak…)
Sorry, I meant I’ve learnt a lot from various beliefs systems, and experienced a lot for the last 14 years of my life. Some I still practice certain teachings, whilst others I no longer wish to note and refuse to have them as part of my future. Areas of experience are as follows:
- Hermeticism (true Hermeticism, not the New Age equivanlent.
- Kemeticism/Ancient Egyptian paganism
- Qabalah and Kabalah
- General witchcraft
- General occult practices
- Tarot – both general and Thoth
- Crystal casting
- Etruscan oil
- I Ching
- Buddhism – Mostly Zen as I love the two main schools of thought
- Vajrayogini practice
- Holistic therapy – including herbal medicines
- Tai Chi and Kung Fu
- Philosophy – Plato, Nietzsche, Descartes etc
And many more areas I am currently studying!
My beliefs stem around Thelema – the living practice of bettering yourself for a spiritual initiation into thought and knowledge, but also a high regard for respect and common sense. A life of love, and the grace of living your True Will.
YouTube channel updates – October 2013
At the moment I am on a break, due to university life really taking off, and due to lessons I am teaching myself concerning Thelema and other occult practices, and I am also growing quite weary of the spiritual/pagan/New Age community and feel I have nothing I want to impart or share with them; our similarities are differentiated by practical ascension vs the New Age quick fix, and if I were to point out where they are going wrong, it would go against my beliefs of Free Will, and the theory that many people just aren’t supposed to go any further in the lifetime they are in.
I will come back to YouTube eventually, but I am currently weaning myself away, in the hope that more Thelemites and occult practitioners will eventually come out of the woodworks and help each other out, and develop a community for ourselves and other folks who are interested.
Love is the law, love under will