So this is a super short post, purely because I am quite annoyed and would just like to know what gives people the right to treat others within the pagan community the way they do? This is a very difficult issue and sadly I’m crying as I type this but it has become so personal that it affects my heart.
This is one of several comments from a Youtuber about a series I did on the Ancient Greek Classics by Homer and Hesiod. I’ve been working with the Greek Gods and Roman Gods for a long time now and they have revealed a lot to me, and taught me a lot. Now if religion was only permitted on the basis on skin colour why the hell would they come to me in dreams? Why the hell would Apollo take me under his wing to help me when I needed strength? If I’m meant to be in a box why would Anubis, Cernunnos and other Gods go out of their way to ask me to honour them? Those thoughts run through my head. It’s very difficult to understand.
I gathered information and looked up my notes on the Theogony and the Iliad from previous personal study and put together a small series of 4 or 5 videos detailing the creation of the world according to those amazing poets. A few people had asked for my take to aid them in their own study, and I was more than happy to help in any way I could. I understand my videos are incredibly boring and very monotone, but that’s just me. I take things seriously, and present them in the best fashion as I am quite nervous in front of the camera. I find it easy to fall into a state of paranoia when I talk openly about my own experiences, but that’s part of the risk when making vlogs for the internet. I’m creating these videos with a piece of my heart in each one, hoping to help at least one person out there, and so that means I’m open to the hate and the hurtful comments. In time I just have to take my stride and rise up against the silly comments, but every so often I will buckle and let the hurt in. It hurts.
The things I have experienced as a witch are most amazing and incredibly captivating. I only wish to share some of them with whoever is willing to listen. Sadly I get comments like this and wonder why I bother :
“oh great a black broad trying to be white through a traditionally white pantheon when will the madness end “
Why wake up in the morning just to rip me and my beliefs? Why not just ignore me and get on with your own life? Where do I ‘try’ anything? Where do you get your research and information from?
That series is now no longer open to the public and in time I will delete them, but I spend so long working on something only to be shunned and overlooked. I’m sorry I don’t have the spunk and energy most others do and that’s why I have taken a break. I shan’t do much more for a while now.
All I ask is this, please inform me which videos I should remove now rather than later when my heart finally breaks. I feel like an idiot thinking I was doing something to help people. I’ve only been practising a short 13 years come June, but I thought my input was something I could share.