This is just a quick post, as I’m also uploading a new video on Youtube.
The 108 Day of Mantra/Meditation will happen sooner than planned as I feel I need to disappear quite soon. Over the past 2 years of interacting with all kinds of people I feel the closeness and belonging I wanted has never truly touched me. Now, I see myself staying away from those wants as holding on will consume me, and eventually make me feel worse. I will keep in contact with folks via Facebook if they want to, and I’ll do 1 weekly vlog, again about me and the 108 Days.
Being a spiritual minded nerd is hard. Especially when social skills are awful, and if you’re used to habit like me. My habit is getting too close to loneliness. In a way I feel I let myself down when doing videos as I know I haven’t got all the things I wanted to say on them out properly, and the thought of doing a second video would be pointless, I’ll have difficulty then too. I’m glad with the little circle of friends I have who I can happily share opinions with, so I think I’ll stick to them for a while.
All I want to say… Thank you for giving me inspiration. The Muses have truly been with me.
3 more videos then I’m going to go (I think).