I did a rant post a while back: https://sycalaelen.wordpress.com/2010/01/17/what-the-hell-happened-2/
I don’t know if any of you have noticed but the main thing people love to do when logging into Youtube is to watch videos that make you laugh, cry or inform you. On top of that, a lot of people have made friends, found love and gathered many haters. That’s the joy of the internet, not just Youtube. For me, I have made friends with a ton of people, and I still reach out to as many folks as I can. I make videos, which okay… aren’t the ‘coolest’ and neither am I the sort of person people would say, ‘Oh she’s hot, so I’m going to watch her.’
I like to talk about things that interest me and that’s part of my mission. To learn, to discuss and to cultivate my intellectual energies over time (my older videos make me cringe…… Oy vey!) I’m not on Youtube for the glamour, or the fame. Neither am I there to get as many subscribers as… ahem no worry. I’m there to be me and noting is going to change that. Over the past 23 months that I’ve been on Youtube, I seamlessly joined the Youtube Pagan community which was awesome. I’ve seen people come and go, due to money problems, lack of internet, family issues etc. I’ve seen people start out with great channels and brilliant videos only to log in later and find their channel gone or videos deleted. It sucks. I’ve made a ton of friends, some of which are buddies I’ve been given permission to ‘stalk’ via Facebook, and I’ve also had the pleasure of writing/reaching out to other pagans and ‘well-to-do’ pagans who never write back or give me a reply in any way.
I get that some people need attention, that’s fine, but once you film videos that people begin to appreciate, you’re kind of filming for our sakes too. That’s part of the invisible agreement aka common sense in structure of presentation. You film something, but if you want people to watch your videos, you kind of owe it to your subscribers’ to give some explanation before you disappear or delete your videos. Somewhere in there the word respect crops up, it goes back and forth.
There is a lot I would love to say, on certain topics, or ranting about how I’d love to be cool, sexy and savvy enough to attract more to my blog or channel, but my spirituality has taught me to be happy with what I do have at this very moment. That’s partly the reason why, if everyone randomly unsubbed from me, it wouldn’t make me flinch. I’d keep my videos up for my sake.
Now, I’m going to say names, but over the past 2 years I’ve only come across maybe 50 people who i respect and love wholeheartedly for being honest, and being themselves. These folks are the ones who I know are blessed with modesty and happiness. But there are others with ‘agendas’ and I’m not too keen on them. Either way… Stop deleting your videos without an explanation!
It leaves me in a slightly stale mood… ‘What happened?’ ‘Why?’ ‘Who am I going to watch now… no one is like him/her…?’ ‘Do they have a mental problem since I know how to detect it?’ – (I’m a healthcare assistant…)
I don’t know… ranting……… I just feel angry right now… Mantra time me thinks….