It bugs me when I look at myself and notice that the things I want in life don’t turn out the way I hoped they would. Recently I lost a friend and it is still upsetting, another friend has become a distant memory and forgetting him seems like the right thing to do. I’m spring cleaning early, and by that I mean clearing out toxic friends and keeping the true.
I’ve noticed that I have been growing in a way that I can’t explain, and it’s at a pace that is incredibly fast. I mentioned a few times before that I had been a loner most of my life, but the longing to meet and greet new people has been something I hope will work out for me. I’ve made a few friends here and there but I make the mistake of distancing myself from them because I’m used to my solitude. Do you see where I’m getting at here? When I’m alone I hate it, when I’m around folks I love it but after a while I feel at ease knowing I’m in the corner by myself. As of this year I’m going to make friends, I’m not going to expect much or expect to meet someone or a few people who could be new best friends but I’m going to try and be cool. Hehe!
This is where the Gods come in; all I have to do is let them know I need the will and the strength to enjoy company and try to balance it out by hopefully living on my own. Who knows, just thought I’d blag on a blog…