I am someone who will walk into a room full of people and never say a word due to shyness and low self esteem, but I will smile and be courteous no matter what. Obviously as a witch I feel the positive and the negative emotions of life and I’m not gonna stand back and let someone do something bad to me and get away with it, I’m gonna hit back! I don’t care much for repercussions these days as the Gods will judge me and things happen for a reason, but fuck this isn’t high school!
I love the community on YouTube and yes we are all ‘hidden’ behind usernames but if you vow to do something so powerful as to make videos live on the fucking internet don’t expect daisies to come rushing your way. You may feel like no one watches your videos and at time I feel that way too, but get over it and know that at least your one of the few who can make videos whilst some others can’t. I’m a writer at heart but a hell of a talker and I would probably win gold for a talking marathon at the Olympics but if something comes up that I can’t explain well via writing then I’ll make a video and post it just to get at least one comment from someone who may have another view on the subject. It helps me think through what I said and it may end up as a blog on here or a written essay for a future publication, who knows.
I am pretty annoyed and upset at myself for not supporting friends but at the same time we are only human with or without power and I understand why some people leave, but the brashness of others for not getting enough views or not being popular enough and quitting for that is inexcusable. I’m gonna take the time out and read whatever comments I can between shifts and try and watch more videos to understand a little of what is going on. It seems a little late to try and persuade folks to stay but I’m not gonna do that. I just want clarity.
I like making videos as it’s just me vlogging and being me.